"Forgive me my dear blog, I had to put you aside for a while.. "
There's so much to tell but I still can't find the right time to do it all.. just scared all the ideas might fly away.
Hurm… where all the ideas? My head feels empty.
It’s already 1.22am, and my eyes’ are heavy. Still can’t sleep.
I’m already caffeinated.
I have lots of stories to share but I can hardly recall them right now. It’s been a while I’m in my 3rd semester. Things started driving me crazy. 4 labs, means 4 cocky lab reports.
House’s a bit far. No advanced vehicle except that bicycle I just bought. Very much tiring when it’s already late to class. Seriously, feels like in the explorace.
**commercial break.. yay, dengan kebijaksaan yang ada, berjaya juge sy masak sayur yg mcm kt kedai hari tu..alhamdullilah, bertambah lagi koleksi resepi..hihi
**continue..
erm..lot's of universities already closed. what about UMT? there's some students already been suspected. even in my course. I still remember the moment when I became a suspect too. the hospital took my blood sample and I can nervously wait for the results. It's just after I went back from KMPII. demam panas, sakit tekak..sume la..selesema skali.
alhamdulillah, nothing serious. (huhu...tak jadi nak buat surat wasiat..)
just two of them. provided for those who interested only..hehe
above pic - dated 26 June, full article. sedihnye, tak sume masuk..(-_-) below pic - dated 29 June, just a pic..ala2 lensa sinar la..(suka la sape yg masuk paper tu..hihi)
It has been a week since the 3rd sem started. Means… it’s also been a week I’m staying in this house I rent with other 4 housemates. House OK, quite big for 5 people. Just nice.
It’s time to learn how to be independent…
Sincerely, there’s a big difference from my previous life here. A culture shock at first, but fitting in is my priority to survive… almost.
Opss! Before I reveal further about my new life in my new house with my new housemates and friends… let me share a bit about my so called ‘previous life’( in my 1st year ).
I stayed in a room at the hostel, with other 3 room mates. All of us are just like other majority people. We don’t really strict in managing our life. We do what we think we can. We don’t do what we think we can’t. We are not that Islamic, but we’re not that social as well. Life’s simple.
Free time filled with waking up very late in d morning, watching movies, endless n worthless chats among roommates, play games, sleep, eat, revise the lecture notes(in case very rajin la tu..), finish the assignments and so on. Performing solat at musolla wasn't included. Same goes to ta'lim and other related stuff. I did join the usrah, but there's so much reasons for not following the schedule. The same routine in weekends...
Now…
I live with akhawat. What’s that? Well, what I can simplify about it’s definition is a bunch of girls with strong bonds to help and improve each other in the effort of getting the Almighty redha.
The routine is different. Here, we pray in jemaah in most of the time. After that, we’ll recite al-Ma’thurat together. We try not to sleep after Fajr. We try to wake up early, so that we can perform the Qiam. Lack of worthless chats, we rather give tazkirah, a simple ta’lim, tell stories about sirah and hadith, share the knowledge about things that can improve our Iman ( InsyaAllah ). Sometimes, other akhawat did come here. They got meetings, musyawarah to improve the da’wah progress. Maybe that’s why this house not as hot as my previous room. The baraqah is here..
*Commercial break – today’s the first day we cook. Nasi+tumis ikan bilis+kobis masak telur+telur dadar+kordial anggur yg rasa dia mcm roselle(kata kak niza, the eldest housemate-already graduated). Just nice for bujang-ers’. Huhu..tak sangka, diri ini mampu memasak rupanya..
Emm… I’m just a person that can easily affected by people around me, especially my friends. So, choosing who I must be with is really important. That’s why I tried to be close to these people that I think could possibly guide me and my life. So that I won’t slipped away too far from the purpose of living - to seek His redha and serve as a good servant. (Even there are moments when parts of me become really stubborn and rebellious to this path of life I’ve chose). Of course, there are lots of obstacles in doing good things.
Fighting is prescribed upon you, and you dislike it. But it is possible that you dislike a thing which is good for you, and that you love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah know,, and you know not.
Al-baqarah:216
I’m just too weak to walk on this earth alone… too weak to istiqamah..too weak to fight what nafs keep telling me. I need to fight what looks nice in this two eyes.. I must.
I just need to hold on longer, force myself to accept the rules in this house so they’ll suit my routine. I know, I can’t manage my life alone. I need someone that can always remind me when I forgot, encourage me to do what a good servant got to do. Hope that one day, I can be as strong as other akhawat too… ameen.
p/s: don't become prejudice to other people. Befriend with everyone, but choose the right one to be your sahabat.
hurm..dilanda kemalasan..tuk kemas brg..lusa da nk g UMT..huu..
2. Saya nak makan..
durian, sushi yg adik bwk balik td.. ciput sgt..
3. Saya x suka... org yg tak percayakan saye, org yg berkias2...(xfhm la..stret 2 d point je trus, sng), citer mslh kat orang lain, mtk tlg.. o 4. Impian saya... byk..ada dlm wishlist..overall, kebahagian dunia dan akhirat la..
5. Haiwan yang saya x suka... 'kerbau pendek', lalat..hmm..byk yg terbang2 nyer serangga kot..tu kira haiwan jgk kn3..
6. Saya harapkan... sihat la cpat2 zarin..sem 3 dah nk mula ni.. 7. Jika boleh putarkan masa... nk bwat btol2 juge dlm spm..leh g OC..tp, bhy jgk..skrg x slamat..h1n1.. hmm..btw, bleh ke putar masa?? x) 8. Saya pada 10 tahun akan datang? 10 thun lg? 29 years old la ni..ms tu dh ada kerja yg kukuh( I'Allah) kalu phD dh abes la, dh ada husband n anak2 dh kot..huhu..agak2 gemuk ke kurus lg ye time tu?? xreti la nk ramal2 ni..ntah2 sy dh xde atas muka bumi ni..ntah2 ms tu dh kiamat..byk la ntah2 nye.. .....
9. Handphone saya adalah sebuah? ??alat komunikasi le.juge jd alarm clock n reminder..nk buat ape,besday siapa..jrg calling2..sms saje..jimat. tgkp2 gmbr, dgr lagu..tp, dalam sume tu..plg sy suke sms le..murah, 1 sen je. lgpn slalu dpt sms free utk 8pax..tu yg suke tu..
10. Saya pernah bercinta sebanyak? hoho..brp kali ye?hm..1? 2?..hmm..1 je kot..ke..xprnah? ntah..hihi.. bg definisi cinta sket..
11. Saya suka pada... ape2 yg sedap mata memandang, laptop n hanset(n gadget berkaitan), org2 yg spotting, sesuatu yg membawa kpd kebaikan..sy suke skolah sy..oh, sy suke juge pd yg sudi kongsi rahsia atau citer mslh kat sy..rs dihargai. dipercayai..terharu2..
12. Kawan-kawan saya... yg mana? byk le.. mcm2 jenis. yg gila2, yg soleh n solehah, yg mcm wanita melayu terakhir, yg nerd, yg kucar kacir cam sy, yg sibuk je nk tau psl org, yg simpan rahsia sy..mcm2 la..
13. Pernah dikhianati? pernah ke ea? pernah kot..tp, misunderstanding je sbnrnye..biasa la, lidah sendiri pn bleh tergigit..ni kan dgn org lain..
14. Apakah yang anda hendak lakukan terhadap orang yg mengkhianati anda? bwat tak kenal je..(dah mrh sgt kn...) bila da reda, buat x igt psl pengkhianatan tu..kalu diungkit, maunye berderai air mata..xleh r psl frenship ni, cpat terharu..emo..huk2
15. Senaraikan 8 org utk di tagged:
mesti ke tag org lain jgk? pnat la isi bnda alah ni..xnk la..ni pn dh kira rajin tahap maksimum dh ni.. sape rs nk buat, buat la..
Nabi Muhammad s.a.w pernah bersabda yang bermaksud:
“Tidak sempurna iman seseorang itu selagi ia tidak mengasihi saudaranya sebagaimana ia mengasihi dirinya sendiri.” (Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim)
Demikianlah keindahan Islam. Jauh dari unsur mementingkan diri atau nafsi-nafsi sehinggakan kasih sesama saudara diletakkan sebagai syarat kesempurnaan iman.
Untuk menyahut seruan ini, cuba kita praktikkan perkara di bawah. Semoga dengan cara ini ukhwah yang terjalin akan bertambah kukuh dan manis.
1. Nyatakan rasa kasihmu terhadap saudaramu.
Sabda Rasulullah: “Jika seseorang itu kasih akan saudaranya, beritahulah kepadanya bahawa dia kasih kepadanya.” (Riwayat Abu Daud dan Tarmidzi)
2. Mintalah supaya saudaramu mendoakanmu sebelum berpisah.
Umar al-Khattab r.a berkata, “Saya minta izin kepada baginda Rasulullah s.a.w untuk mengerjakan umarah. Baginda Rasulullah s.a.w membenarkan dan berpesan; “Jangan lupa berdoa untuk kami bersama.” (Riwayat Abu Daud dan Tarmidzi).
3. Segeralah bersalam apabila bertemu.
Sabda Rasulullah s.a.w, “Tiadalah dua orang muslim yang bertemu lalu bersalaman melainkan dosa mereka akan diampunkan sebelum berpisah.”
4. Bermanis muka apabila bertemu “Janganlah kamu memandang hina terhadap kebaikan walaupun kecil, sekalipun bermanis muka ketika bertemu dengan kawan-kawan”.
5. Memberi ucapan tahniah kepada saudaranya dan menyukakan hatinya.
“Siapa yang menemui saudaranya dengan apa-apa yang menyukakannya, nescaya Allah akan menyukannya pada hari kiamat.”
6. Laksanakan tanggungjawab persaudaraan dengan sempurna.
Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a, Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda, maksudnya: Siapa yang melapangkan satu kesusahan orang yang beriman daripada kesusahan-kesusahan dunia, Allah akan melapangkan orang itu, satu kerumitan daripada kerumitan Akhirat. Dan siapa yang memudahkan orang yang susah, Allah akan memudahkannya di dunia dan akhirat. Siapa yang menutup keaiban orang Islam, Allah akan menutupkan keaibannya di dunia dan akhirat. Dan Allah sentiasa menolong hamba itu selagi hamba itu mahu menolong saudaranya. (Riwayat Muslim)
back to English. (since someone did comment about using BM n BI in d same time..hihi)
Nothing much to say..I'm not feeling very well. The fever's gone, but the cough's still there, interrupting my days and nights. Hope it'll be fine b4 the 3rd sem starts..
Curious, why teenagers and early adults love to talk about love? Most of my friends, which are IPT students now don't really talk merely about love. They talked about about marriage! An advanced stage of life. Are we ready enough to talk about it? We're just 20's..(me excluded). Why in hurry? InsyaAllah, our journey is still far. We don't even finish our studies yet..Although it is not illegal, but don't you all think it's kinda rush? Our goal now is to study. Finish what must be done first. Don't try to involve yourself in this love thing yet coz it'll cost you your future. Study first, k. Fight, fight,fight!
If you already have an interest in someone, desiring to make him or her as your future partner..just leave it to Allah s.w.t. We don't know our destiny, what's written in Luh Mahfuz. We plan, but it's HIM who decides what's best for us. What happen if the person you like is not your true partner? You'll frustrated, you waste your love to the wrong person. Pitiful.
Ting!
I'm not saying.."hey everyone, stop loving.. avoid early marriage!" It'll be very harsh isn't it? Sounds like forcing everyone to kill the feeling to love. Everyone have feelings, and if it's their destiny to marry early, why must we oppose? Better than doing all the sins..
I am really curious about these people who dare do marry in such an early age. too curious.. But I'm not that serious thinking about it.. Personally, I have more interest in my studies..for now. Don't really remember what's love like. Relax my friends, the right man will come when the right time comes. So, don't expect too much..again, leave it to Allah s.w.t.
Sabtu baru ni, berakhirlah Kem Menuju Puncak II yang telah dirancang melebihi 2 bulan. Kali ni saya tak jadi fasilitator, so.. tak dapatlah berkenalan dengan ahli kumpulan sebab kumpulan pun takde..hihi.. tapi takpe. Saya diberi amanah yang lebih besar, jadi saya kena fokus pada kerja-kerja saya...kerja-kerja jaga duit =)
Masa mula-mula sampai kat imtiaz, rasa sejuk je bila pandang students. Pakai tudung labuh, jubah, sarung kaki, armsock pun.. ( malu pn ada kat mereka-mereka ni..)Yang lelaki plk ada je kopiah atas kepala. Kebetulan ada tahlil, seronok tgk adik2 semua pakai jubah putih (yg lelaki la). Rasa mcm nak haji pn ade..huhu.Kalau bertembung dengan mereka, majoriti bagi salam. Rasa macam mereka ni dah ok dah.. tak perlu lagi motivasi..
Saya tak dapat nak ikuti sgt perkembangan pelajar sepanjang kem, sbb kerja-kerja saya byk di blkg tabir. Sebelum terlupa (kata2 Radhiah ni..hihi), sbnrnya bukan semua pelajar tingkatan 1&2 terlibat. Sekolah dah anjur macam-macam aktiviti minggu tu. Ada pertandingan Nashid, Bola Jaring, Uji Minda...mcm2 lah..Daripada 120 peserta, tinggal 70 lbih je..
Saya ada terjumpa dgn beberapa pelajar tingkatan 1 perempuan yg tak dapat join sbb ada pertandingan Nashid. Majoriti terkilan la sbb xleh join. Ada yang dari selangor, sedih bila sy ckp ada aktiviti kat luar imtiaz..dorg x pernah pn kluar kat sekitar2 imtiaz. Sabarlah dik ye.. Lagipun Ustaz Zul ada suggest, kalau boleh next time buat kat luar. InsyaAllah ustaz, depends pada musyawarah peringkat atasan..
Terkilan jugak sebenarnye.. ada pihak yang tak dpt memberikan komitmen pd kem. Yang bagi nama tp tak hadir, yang hadir tp tak sempat kem pn dah cabut lari..Myb diorang ada mslh kot.. Walau apepun, terima kasih banyak2 pada yg terus istiqamah dengan kem ni. Kalau ikutkn, kita tak dapat apa pun dari kem selain sekeping sijil. (tu pun tak dapat lagi kan..) Sabar ye, nanti dapatlah tu.. It's a matter of time. Semoga Allah jua yang membalas jasa yang telah dicurahkan..
Barisan ajk & fasi kali ni pun terdiri drp batch yang berbeza2. Yang ada batch spm03,04,06,07,08. Suka jgk bila kumpul ramai2 ni.. yang mana dah terputus hubungan tu, boleh sambung balik. Yang mana tak kenal, boleh berkenal-kenalan..tak kisah lah sesama ajk, fasi mahupun dengan adik2.
Kenangan kem kali ini InsyaAllah akan sentiasa diingati.. bak kata sorng shbt.."memories are the pleasures that no one can steal"..
Kita nantikan kedatangan Kem Menuju Puncak III plk yerk.. imtiaz, c u soon..(pnat pn x abih lg...huhu)
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