whoaa.. its webbing here!

oh my god!

It has been ages since the last time I wrote. Well, wanita berkerjaya takkan nk mengadap blog je all the time. *phuii

Nothing much to tell. Just singgah2. Enslaved with Astro almost 2 years. Gila! Never thought I made it this far. Damn challenging. Orang2 macho perkasa n kuat mental je boleh tahan! **LOL

Hm.. sy tulis jela ape sy nk tulis.

Lapar ni.. makan roti canai je harini. Balik kampung, jaga adik, since both parents ada kursus. Anak sulung, bese lah. Adik bradik pulak sikit. So, above all...family first!

Skrg umah sgn dlm proses renovation. nak tmbah bilik air in each of the rooms. lubang sana sini. Dad nk pulak renovate atap..ala2 mcm resort T__T.. I heard he took my Tabung haji funds ** kidding :P

So..life's getting busier each and every day. I have 2 jobs now. Had too lah.. impian kemain byk, nak achieve macam mana kalau takat makan gaji. Ala..stnadard la org zaman skrg ada byk2 keje. Cumanya, orang manja mcm sy ni.. trouble sikit la nk keluar conform zone. 

Xpe, we're anak2 sulung.. mana boleh nk selesa selalu. Berbakti habeh2 utk parent, then..bile dah kawen... follow husband. **hopefully dear husband, jgn limit sgt la pergerakan sy.. u do ur stuff..i too do my stuff. settle ;)

So..this sept n Nov..I'm goint to ke luar negara! hoyeh!! Its been a very long whileee after the last time I went jalan2..

Sekarang ni tengah demam duk byg2 tmpt nk travel.. nk pose mcm mana.. nk pkai stylo2.. nk amik scenery best2.. nk mkn best2.. *ok bab mknn tu..mcm nk kena mkn megi je? huuu..igt senang nk cari mknn vogue2 yg halal??*

Okeh, kelaparan bermaharajalela. I shud go and find something to eat.

Till then, XOXO


**p/s: forget the fling post. its already expired. Fall for wrong person. haha.. but we're friends now. zero awkwardness!

cicak dan lelabah

okela.

trase cam rajin pulak nak update blog. tentang apa? err..

takde apa sangat nak diceritakan. cumanya nak bagitahu, saya terjumpe satu belog yang pemiliknye persis kawan skolah dulu. okela.. persis che wan. yela, saya memang suka pon stalk blog beliau. salah ke nak stalk orang2 hebak? lols. orang lawa, cerdik, pandai masak, creative, independent, confident.. kalo ikutkan, banyak lagi nak dikagumkan semek yang comel itu (brani kau panggil die semek, zarinn?? ) eh..tehee.. tak marah kann?

eh eh.. bkn nak cite pasal che wan kat sini. nak cite pasal blog yang empunya nya macam che wan tu.

http://cicakdanlelabah.blogspot.com/

printscreen blog tersebut. klik untuk tatapan lebih besar. tehee

nama empunya, Sri. dipanggil Sri. Nama betul, Ramadana Salman. Err..pompuan ye. Malay.

ehe..nama macam hindustan kan? orangnye cantik. nampak cerdik (mana kau tahu??) erm.. beliau biotechnologist. tp freelancer web designer. cerdik lah tu. tak kenal sangat pun tapi blog die interesting oh! banyak gak cakap pasal makanan. hehe.. pandai amik gambar lawa2.. kamera ape la gamoksnye beliau guna ye. tapi..saya rasa la.. die ni level ala2 che wan kot. I mean.. quite berada la... mampu nak makan kat tempat mahal slalu compared to us..I mean, me.

suke benonye tgk org yang ala2 high end nih.nampak confident jep. saya ni.. nampak orang confident sket trus nak adore kann. haihh

salah ke? tak kann..

:P

Update satt

Hai.. nak curi masa kejap update belog. Gesaan tika bertemu dengan blogger femes seng ragel kite (kata beliau la..) hekhekhek.. Laila juga ada menyebut akan sunyinya belog ini. Hem. Ape mau buat.. sibuk der.. lgpon kte bkn blogger femes ames. Berhabuk bersawang pon, ade orang sibuk tanye kah..?


Er.. Ok.. dah berapa bulan kat ibukota ni. 2 bulan lebih. Eh.. dah nak masuk bulan ketiga sebenarnya. Lama ke? Well.. sedar tak sedar, I da jadik orang Kay Ewl uols. Haha.. Er.. dah terer dah naik lrt, monorel..ktm. MidValley tu..dah mcm kedai runcit dah. Jejak kaki dah tinggal kat lowyat, timesquare, ikea, sungei wang, suria klcc, the curve..


Haha.
Tp, xpernah lg tgk movie duk sini. Xde orang ajak. *den pon bkn gemor bebeno nengok wayang nih. Tp..merasa la jgk berjalan. K.ina rajin jgk ajak kesana-kesini. Rumah xdela sunyi mana dah.. sbb salu je kuar jumpe member. Tak pun member datang rumah.


Keskeskes..
Berdikarilah engkau dibumi metropolitan nih. 

 

Minggu lepas..satu lagi.. saya melancong ke South Korea wif famili. Best woo! Siyes tak tipu. Tapi kejap sangat, 3 hari je. Tp tu pn macam sume tempat dah pegi. Okla..Cuma xpegi everland, jeju..dongdaemun.

 

poyo lak nak pakai spek mate belalang. nampak anehs puns ade. tsk =.="

 

 Masa pergi bulan May. 19 May-21 May. Musim bunga dah nak habis. Dah takde dah sakura banyak2 tuh. Weather’s good. Sang suria ade menyumbang haba, tapi udara kat sana sejukk. Ala..xdela sejuk cam winter kot. Sejuk sikit daripada Cameron highland. Plan jugak nak cter detail pasal trip korea nih. Boleh la orang buat rujuk2 ke hap eke kan.. Overall dalam rm2000+ la sorang. Dah cam pur flight n package which consists of mknn, penginapan, pengangkutan, and tour guide.


Paling seronok kat mana? Hehe..
Semua seronok. Tapi, sebab ihsan saudara norden salam, saya ditemani sebijik dslr ke sana! Dan.. semuanya menjadi indah…..#ehh? Err.. I mean. Sukelah yang amat kot.. antara niat pergi mmg nak amik gambar lawa2. (lawa ke..?) so, ade dslr.. kire dah langsai la wish ituh. Tempat paling best nak amik gambar? Erm.. Nami Island! Tapikan..kalo musim saljji or luruh, mesti lagi lawa kan? Next time lah agaknye.. #ehh? lagi.


Hehe.. tp travelling ke Negara yang total no malay situation mmg best. What an experience. Eish.. terbanyak pulak ceritanya. Copcopcop! Kite kena buat post lain untuk korea. Ini Cuma update sahaja. erm..ape lagi nak cte? Oh ye..smlm kan.. perkara shock and awe berlaku. Tak boleh cter panjang demi masa depan yang cerah benderang. #err..


Setakat yang bleh cter adelah…..
Semalam…saya, fifi, nisa and laila g damansara jumpe blogger terkenal kite, seng ragel..atau lebih dikenali sebagai bikpah.. atau.. zarifah.. juga zarifamr.. Saje mau jumpa-jumpaan. Ika xdpt dtg kerna beliau jauh. Nora pulak.. pulang ke kampong halaman. Borak2..makan2.. begitulah kisahnye. Ehes. Tapi..yang epik adelah 2 event yang mengiringi pertemuan itu. Satu sebelom, and satu lagi selepas.Serius Allah nak bagi peringatan *oke...ini mmg serius. Erm.. boleh cter yang selepas aje.. hehuu. While nak turun flyover kat mana-ntah, tetibe keta mazda putih idaman yang hensem dan gagah perkasa itu bergegar. I mean..driving x smooth.. mcm…something wrong ngan tayar.geduk geduk geduk. Oleh sebab event yang pertama tadi masih menghantui, ktorg decide to stop. Nak check ape tak kena.mungkin saja sequence dari event yang pertama tadi..


And guess what. Tayar pecah! Ktorang berempat..all girls.. pkul 11pm lebih (ke..12am lebih? Lupedah) dkat man-mana ntah. Cuak lah!


So..cubaan nak tukar tayar tu adelah. Dah hijack..tp nak tukar pulak xpandai. Teori ade..tp, kudrat pulak tak cukup. oleh kerana Nisa je yang ada boyfren dikalangan ktorg, makan beliau dikerah menelefon boifrennye itu. Tup2..ade sebuah keta brenti. Ade sorg abg, pkcik..n akak. Akak tu duk je dalam kete. Abg n pkcik tu tolong tukar tayar.


Saat itu sungguh......*don't know how to describe* Oh abam heroooO~#ehh
Err.. apepon, terima kasih banyak2! Abam hero pakai baju oren. dan.. mengenai boyfrennye nisa itu..kami tidak bertemu pun dengan beliau kerana kesilapan arah yang diberikan oleh Nisa. Kasihan beliau. Hewhew.. apepon, I’m sure nisa akan pujuk later on. Keskeskes. Oh ye.. disaat tengah memikirkan nak mintak tolong sape itu.. weols yg single neh pon sebulat suara…..”time nilah functionnye pakwe!”


Ngehngeh.. hai ble lah nak jumpe sorang neh. Forever alone sumgoh! :P
Okeh tu bkn ayat nak cakap I available ke hape okay. Eii.. not my style la tergedik2 sebegitu! #err..tp..bukanke..bunyinye…cenggitu? Eh eh..ape cakap pasal pkwe2 plk nih. Eish tak macho tak macho.


Erm.. er.. tetibe dah xtaw nk cakap pe. Sampai sini jela dulu kot. Hewhew…
Assalamualaikum~

p/s: oh ye, I guess semalam ade orang tu tido ngan sengih2 dan blushing2 seluruh muka.. maklum sajela, mendengar cter tentang orang yang diminati. Positif pulaks thus. kekeke

Mother-like feeling

Funny though.. life alone like this. You wake up alone, got to prepare your own breakfast.. or even lunch. Wash dishes and make sure the house is clean before you go to work.


Working. Yes, you are alone again. There are other staff near you, but they got their own job right. So… it’s you and your job. Evening, You go home. Went on LRT.. where others independent people just go to where ever they wanna go. Night, you prepare your dinner. Lazy enuf, you just hit the nearby stalls before going up the apartment. Buy some dishes. You just cook the rice. You eat, watch TV. Prepare tomorrow’s attire. Sleep.


Everyday.


It’s just so funny. I mean.. being out like an adult. Well, I am young. My brain’s young. I dunno if I can really live this kind of life. Even funnier.. somehow this condition gives me the mothery feelings. Haha..

 

Why not.. you wake up alone, preparing breakfast as if you got children to feed. Later prepare them to the tadika.. time keje, already nak kena pk..mlm nnti nak masa apa. balik, go fetch them from the tadika first. Then prepare dinner.


Seronok lah plk imagine cmtuh.
*sebab imagine je, bkn real pn..tu yg sronok. Kalo real, mau mampus kot.. bkn takat kena prepare itu ini..tp kne layan kerenah anak2 lg. kalo anak yg mengada2…lg la.. semoga tak jadi ibu yg garang. Hahaha


erk.. oke, sy dah mula merepek. Tp siyes what.. memang trase cmtu. Mcm lawak untuk minda umo 22 tahun. Bg sy la.. sbb sy tahu diri sy ni cmne. Kebudak-budakkan. Certain people, umo 22 mmg dah matured. Fikiran mcm dah kehadapan..mcm org2 dewasa. I don’t really think I’m that kind of people la.


Tapitapitapi..
Bebaru ni.. got a fren tanya sy..” zarin anak sulung ea?” She said sy nmpk berdikari. Hahaha..


Had to la sayang. Dah la tercampak kt bumi KL ni sorg2. Keje lak sorg2.. most of the things mmg kena buat sendiri.. besides.. parent pn bukan makin muda. So, despite of how kebudak-budakkan n manja.. terpaksa la push diri untuk survive. Sampai bile nak bergantung kat family kan?


*serius?
Hm.. baru2 ni satu peristiwa besar berlaku. Sy takkan lupa sampai bila2 la.. it’s about the bitterness of city life. Sy ade merepek psl tu in previous post. Tp xnak mention ape bnda yg berlaku. Malas untuk mengingat. Biar jadik pengajaran je. And… it makes me think. Adekah sy perlu pemantau? I mean..org yang ade untuk pantau ape yg sy buat. I mean..er..


Mcm mana nak ckp ye.. Ala.. senang ckp..teman hidup? Haha.ops! gatai nak kawin kaa?


Xdela jgk. Feeling natural je. Xdek la rs desperate lg. haha.. cumanya, ntahla.. sy xtahu adekah sy ni can go on kehidupan gni. Baru je jauh sket ngan family.. bru je xbrp lama duk sorg2… dah ada mnde extreme berlaku. Soalannye.. can I really trust myself? Eh.. korg paham ke sy ckp ape ni? Mcm makin pening je. Haha.. ntah. Xreti dah nak explain. Hal berkaitan feelings ni mmg pyh nk explain, xgtu?



:P

Happiness only real when shared

Maybe I dreamed too much.

Hm..

Dear blog.. Sincerely what’s mentioned in the movie “Into the Wild” is plain true.

“Happiness only real when shared”

Not saying I’m not happy now. I wish I could tell you everything... but everyone got stories meant to be kept alone. Secrets.

I wish you know.. that I am a bit depressed. Not about the workings. Not really about staying alone. It’s about what I did last week. I don’t even want to recall about it. Don’t ask me. Please. I’ve had enough. I did feel like this once.. when I broke up with my 1^st love. Yes, this is as bitter as that. I don’t know if I’m really okay.. or just pretend like one. Life must go on, I can’t keep thinking or regretting about it all the time.

 But I can’t help to cry seeing the dreams I so want to have before my eyes. It was a torture. Tremendous one.

And…to make it worse, it happens everyday.

 Dear blog.. if only you know……

I know saying stuff won’t undo the past. Lot’s of ‘if only’s too won’t undo the past.

 I just… don’t know what to say.. I just want to let you know how I feel right now. Because..I don’t really have somebody near me..in real.. to talk to.

It’s not that sweet n encouraging to keep on saying “Yes I can do this! There are lots of people less fortunate than me. This is nothing” everyday to myself…. alone.

I’m admitting that I’m just as other people too. There are times when I can be as bright as I can..or keep on motivated and positive most of the times. But..there are also times when I am in the weakest state. I’m just a human. Even superheroes got depressed at times, don’t they?

Bitterness

Last Sunday was a mess.

Yesterday too.

She was too clueless and innocent.

She wanted to believe

that there are still kind people in this world.

Thank God, there are.

But still,

bad people are everywhere

She was less likely to aware

But thank God she's okay.

The lost.. let it be.

What's left is more important.

She has tasted the bitterness of city life.

Yes she is young..

But there are so many people younger than her

who feel a world a lot bitter than hers

however..

let's hope she's strong enough to face days ahead.

she's really demotivated.

each bit of life pushes her tears.

her love.. she had too kill it.

Maybe she don't want to..

but it's too painful to realize 

it's because of the love.. she's been through such bitterness

that love didn't betray her.

It's... some bad people who tainted the love.

I hope she'll get back on her foot someday

#The cost for an experience is not cheap

Earth Hour and...

Today we're celebrating Earth Hour. 

I switched off the lights.

It was dark.

I light the candles.

It was brighter.

Outside's not that pitch black.

...

ahah.. nak berpoem ke hape tuh?

sempat la jgk bergelap smpena earth hour ni. hehe..

maklum sajela.. da keje under wwf ni.. concern la sket.

Tomorrow I got a meeting. At KL sentral. with.. well, someone with my love.

erk?

kalo ade jodoh..jumpe la kite esok! wee

*eh ckp psl ape ni??

err.. bkn Mr Right ye. ni menda laen.

Something good awaits?

In excitement.

I don’t know if I’m good at taking pictures. Some people said I do.. but..I dunno.. Different people got different views. Maybe there are people who dislike what I’m doing. I mean… my style of so-called photography.

But…

I am clear that I don’t just like doing it, in fact.. I LOVE it! Snap here and there. Buat muka tak malu just for a snap. :P

Yang pasti.. I feel happy doing it. Costy interest. I know..What to say.

♪♪ I was born this way~~ ♪♫

I’m in a good mood today. I and the staff sitting beside me talked a lot today. I feel.. more comfortable. Less stressed out.

Inviting positive thoughts and inspirations. *even ngantuk

Being here… I feel that there’s something awaits me. Something good. Something I love.

Intuition? Or.. just bare caffeine hyped-up syndrome?

#anticipating

A young lady in the rain

*title yg sgt xleh blah. 

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Eventho I like nasi lemak so much, I still can’t eat it everyday. Always terrified of the atherosclerosis thing. (…and unwanted bulgings too :P) nobody’s taking care of our body when we’re alone. You can make the differences. *oke, da mula sound mcm iklan.

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Ok, that’s the mukaddimah for today.

Hari ni hujan. Bangun subuh je dah hujan. Terus terang jela, mmg liat nak bangun. Tp..keje ttp keje kan?

Sadly, xsempat nak bfast. Wuu..lapar.. smpat mnum Nescafe je secawan.

Sekarang kat office. Perut dah mula bunyi2. sempat la jgk beli bihun goring sebungkus. Untuk lunch.

As I said before, kos sara hidup kt cni kan mahal. In addition (cewah..), org yg dpt placement lewat mcm sy ni..berkemungkinan besar utk dpt elaun on next 30. 30^th April I’m saying. So.. satu bulan lagi kot.

Kena ikat perut?

Sebenarnye xdela sebegitu skali. Mom n dad suh bgtaw je kalo xckup duit. But..seriously, I’m 22.. n smmgnye sejak azali lg xske nk mintak2. Malu. Xckup pn ckp ckup je.. dah besar kot, pandai2 la hidup. Cuba sdaya upaya tak bergantung to parent.

Eh..serius plk jadinye.. chill2..

Berbalik kepada cerita td.. perut berbunyi. Dan..oke, berbunyi lg. =.=” len kali kna makan jgk roti ke hape..kan? kalo nisa taw xbfast, mmg dy marah. (ele.. kdg2 dy pn mkn mende merepek jgk utk bfast :P)

N btaw.. hari ni dah la lambat sket.. smpai stesen, berduyun plk org kt mesin token tuh. Halemak.. beratur jela. Dah la dengan payung sesame street nye. Tsk. Sy tak teringat la plk nak bwk payung ke KL nih.. Thankfully, ade payung kt umah tuh. Bukak2…gambar elmo, big bird and..err.. cookie monster??

"..."

Homai.. really young spirit lah sy today. Yela.. ari ni kan hari jumaat. Boleh pakai smart casual. Boleh pakai jeans..t-shirt..sneakers.

So..I’m wearing jeans, n brown t-shirt with stripey sleeve.. black tudung bawal.. with my handsome black sneakers. Pakai pulak beg galas. Bawak pulak payung katun2. seriously, not really an-already-working person look rite?

Haha.. nk bwat cmne. Dah mmg eden ni muda lg. ofkoslah jiwa muda jgk..lalala. bwat pe nk sibuk2 to look like people yg lagi senior kalo dah kite mmg muda lagi? Kemon2~~


#we are young~~ we run free~~

Erk.. ok, da mula merepek. Dengan slamber nye update blog kt office. Bos’ not comin’ yet. Besides..sume keje da siap.. huhu… ape mau buat?

p/s: turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90 turun la lg harga wahai d90

people said, ape2 yg kte ckp adelah doa kan? jum sebut byk2 kali! :D

Placement: WWF!

hehe..

Alhamdulillah..da taw placement ktne.

sy dpt kt WWF..kt PJ

ape tu?

oke.. WWF stands for World Wild Fund

nama melayu  Tabung Alam Malaysia

ala.. xpenah dgr ke?

apesal kite da penah dgr sjak skola rendah lg?

igt lg penah beli notepad...ade gmbr kangaroo..then kt blkg or..kt bwh..de logo panda WWF tuh..

sng ckp..it's an organization yg melindungi hak haiwan liar la..

position ape..xtaw lg..

it's a worldwide organization.

tu yg jd eksaited tuh..

ngee..

tptptp.. yg jadik seram nye.........

1. me alone.. no other gems participant got there

2. confident i'll be the youngest

3. it's PJ. Duhh... never been there b4..huhu

4. house to stay (alhamdulillah da jumpe) tp..sorg gak duk ctu. haih

5. rujuk no.1

tak ke mcm mmg nak suh gile2 independent tuh??

bru ni smpt g sana tgk..

ms tu lunch break..

no malay kot!

erk..bkn racist..cme, kalo rmai sket malay xde la kekoks bebeno nnti..

yg ade time tuh..chinese, indians..omputes pn ade..huhu

thank god la SV malay..

tp siyes agak ngeri la ms mula2 smpai sana tuh.. haha.. nmpk lak omputeh duk lam pejabat tuh.. lg seramm.. haha.. but, no much to be worried at la.. bese la tu. great opportunity to meluaskan lg my network :)

stat 19hb nih.

umah kat Kerinchi.. ekceli..apartment. sdara nye..huhu.. alhamdulillah sgt2..

sbb mmg dah blur nk duk mana..

huhu

so..kt kerinchi tu..dkat la ngan lrt..

about 4 stops kot ke wwf tuh.

trun kt taman bahagia..then kna amik bas

jln kaki bleh je kot..tp xtaw sgt jln..

tgk lam gps mcm xjauh mana pn..huhu..

siyes nebes n takut.

tp..siyes xcited.

haha..

jadi org KL la I nnti..hahahaha

yg penting..rmai member kt belah2 ctu.

st besar la hrpn nk berjumpe ngan dorg.

hoho..

bkn member gems je..

member skola.. matrix

hoho.. me like

me like this.

tercampak ke sana is a very interesting adventure.

I'll try my best to apply what ever knowledge I have..

work sincerely..

Smoge still dpt kekalkan identiti as east coast girl.. or.. not culture shock. insyaAllah..

ouhh.. i like cabaran! fufufff

p/s: looking forward to find possible Mr Right. hahaha (nk cri cmne la kalo dh keje kt yg Malays pn scarce.. haih...)

Socialisme n placement

cik kiah dtg nk berleter!

ahah..*apekah?

xdek ape.. just nk share sikit..ape yg sy dpt or..saksikan spnjg GEMS

hm.. kat sana, campur ngan ramai jenis org.

org luar tganu..n kelanatan..

even in my company pn ade je.. 

n.. got this one friend. lelaki la..

ehh... korg jgn nk pk pelik2..

tggu cik kiah nk abeskan cter dulu..

so.. he's from johor.

big guy la..ahaks..

mule2..mcm.. annoying lah jgk perangainye..

later.. jadik satu geng plk.

skali ngan si reen.

geng bergosip!

haha..

dorg la..start gosipkan I ngan si CEO..pdhal xdek pape pon..

ble dh salu kne usik gtu..jadik rapat la ngan bdk2 nih..

then.. one day.. he told me..

"kau ni baik sgt la.."

err.. excuse me??

hm.. seriously.. xrasa baik pn.

bese je.

cuma.. menjaga la jgk skit2

he asked..

'penah kuar mlm x? lebih pkul 12..?'

I said.." ade la skali dua.. rmai2. huhu.. tp mmg dah xsedap ati la.. "

beliau..."........"

he told me.. masa dy kat uniKL rituh.. bese je kuar mlm smpai xbalik.

karok ke hape ke..

hm.. not me lah kalu begitu. hewhew..

he asked me ..'penah tak amik gmbr ngan lelaki..berdua?' sbb sy salu mengelak nk amik gmbr same2.. even ngan mane2 guys la..

I said.. jrg sgt la..dlm skali 2 gtu je kot.. huhu.. takot bakal suami nnti marah.. heeee

siyes..beliau dgn muka tak percaya beliau ituh.

err... bkn nk sell diri sendiri ke hape nih.

I believe, rmai je lg yg jenis xbersosial seperti itu kan?

so.. I got la sikit the picture of people yg ske bersosial nih..

huhu.. kite ni, kwn ngan yg same spesis..

yg bkn kaki kuar mlm ke..ape..

so.. erm..

ntah la nk ckp pe.

haha..

urm..

one more thing...

sedih jgk sbnrnye..

seeing my dear newly made friends..

bertepuk tampar between girls n boys

I shud've tegur

(believe me, ade time2 mmg I tegur direct je.. huuu.. hangin jgk kdg2.. lg2 kalu kena time tgh xde or bad mood)

kalo la dpt placement belah2 selangor or kl ke..

cmno laa

urm..

bkn xsuke..

nk je dpt belah sana..

dpt new exposure..

blaja culture baru..

dgn harapan.. xdek r terpengaruh ngan mnde2 xelok.

inshaAllah...

I know my limits.

I still know..that ape2 yg I bwat, consequences nye..pd my parent jgk..

I love them..

so.. I won't do anything reckless.

InshaAllah..again

lgpn.. nk g KL.. sbb rmai member kt sana..

mcm si fifi comel..nisa..tikah..

n.. anyone lah..

hee..

apepun.. dpt kt mane2 pn.. smoge kerjanye best!

biar dpt apply sume yg dipelajari~

okies.. daaa

p/s: hee.. duit da ckup separuh nk beli dslr! aci x nk mtk ayah sponsor lg sparuh?? heeeee

tp..dilemma nih..canon ke nikon.. ohmy

 

I heart you GEMS!

ok i try sambung balik ape yg i nk ckp.

first of all.. i rs i akan byk guna 'i'

da terbiasa masa GEMS..

so.. hrp paham lah ye.. 

bkn nk menggedik pon..

ok.. i nk cter psl gems smenanye..

for sure.. akan menjadi amatlah pjg akan cerita itu.

briefly jela ea..

ok..GEMS SERIOUS BEST!

pasaipa i ckp cmtuh?

ok..kat GEMS i didedahkan ngan mcm2 ilmu..

pasal business n corporate world.

I made lots of new friends yg inshaAllah I takkan lupa smpai bila2..

aktiviti like projects n so on pon best..

tp..ape yg I plg ske..

FRIENDSHIP!

siyes.. baru 2 hari berpisah dah rindu gilegilegile!

hari2 duk tgk gmbr kt sana..

duk komen mengomen kt fesbuk..

yela..

petang2..slalu je kuar main bola ke..

beach soccer yg xtahannye..

bola selipar.. hee.. cam bdk2 plk rsnye..

paling kurang..mengendap bdk laki maen volleyball dr bilik. wakaka..

ops!

gosip sana sini..

layan keletah masing2..

xtaw nk ckp cmne dah perasaan seronok tuh cmne..

kalo nk cter dari mula2 masuk smpai closing ceremony tu.. rsnye..xckup satu mlm kot..

huhu..

hopefully theyols berjaya mengejar cita2..

oh ye.. i xdpt lg placement..

majority dpt kt UMT n KIST group.

i ni..sgja mention xnak dlm tganu arituh..

so... on hold lah dulunye..

so..begitula..

seriously missing them so badly.

huhu..

p/s: smpt la jgk minat org itu org ini. well org 1minat... smart la, tp taw2 dh berpunya. ok, out of list. 2nd person, tough.. but then ade yg lg cepat.. so, xsmpt lah i nk mengusha lebih2..(tp i hear he said that..'eh, zarin tu ok la.. comel gak eh' haha.. kembang kejap..but..too late oredi..huhu) then..xtaw dh nk minat sape..tp sbb boleh plk ade 2 org mangkuk ayun tuh duk gossip ngan ceo..tmbh lg ngan rumors yg i dgr..so, minat la jgk sket2. minat ke? ntah.. tp..care lah jgknye.. hew2.. (but later xcare mane dah sbb 2-2 mmg mcm sengal jgk) at the same time minat sorg lg mamat tuh. suke tgk je.. cmne nk ckp ea. minat tp xnak usha pon. haha.. bleh plk kann... so, skrg dh abes gems.. dh xde minat kt sape2 dah.. haha... cter psl mamat yg last tuh pon lucu gak.. tp.. mls la plk nk cter. korg nk dgr jgk ke? 

er.. merapu mmg xpendek.

mengenai contact lenses

bukak belog, terus nmpk previous sad post..

ayuh pos entri baru to replace it! wee

xmo la bk2 belog je rs nk emo2..

haha..

tp..nak tulis ape?

er..

kte ckp psl info semasa lah sikit ye hari ni.

mengenai lens. contact lenses.

sy ni..suke lah jgk pkai lens.

lg suka kalau xdek kaler sbnrnye..

tpkan.. yg colorless ni, tahan satu bulan jek.

hrga sama je ngan colored pnya..

kkdg merasa la jgk nk mate kaler2

kdg2 jela..

tp awak ni shy2 cat lah jgk..

pkai mata lens kaler2 ni..eye catching lah makanya

malu lah jgk nyew..

kte ni xde lah cantik mana nk pkai lens kaler2..

muka pn typical malay je.. xdek nye pan asia ke..mix ke..ape..

stkt nih xpenah lgla beli slain warna brown n grey.

kalo nak rs cam omputes, bru pkai yg grey tuh.

most of the time stick to brown jek.

so..skrg, kat pasaran mmg byk jual lens.

dari korea..taiwan..jepun..mana2lah..

penah la beli 3 pairs sebelum nih. sume ade la jgk label..

yg baru beli ni..lgsg xdek label ape.

takut lah jgk.

yelah.. senang2 je mnde nih dijual..

org xdek lesen pn bleh jual.

xde guarantee pn lens2 tuh slmt.

kite nih..mata ada 2 bijik je.

rosak, rosak lah selama2nya..

barang mau pakai lama maa..

kena lah hati2 jgk..

bru ni kuar paper, ckp psl lens2 nih.

sy xterbaca lah plk.. dad yg told me..

so..perhaps.. this will be the last time for me to buy lenses online.

murah mmg murah.. sy mmg suka bebenor mnde murah2 nih..hohohh

tp..tp... better mencegah drp mengubati kan?

mslhnye..lens kt dngun nih bapaklah mahal..ee

dulu penah beli jenama ape ntah..(bkn freshkon or freshlook la..)

rm30 lebih gtu je.. tp kat dngun nih.. rm60 kot!

dem.. kompem xbeli.

kite ni dah la spesis 'berjimat-cermat'

so.. masa nak balik cuti ari jumaat baru nih, smpat la singgah kt mydin. kt ctu ade kedai opto. murah la sikit..sbb dah penah beli kat ctu.

so i get a Freshlook lens for rm40. ok lah tu..

brand pn dah salu dgr. dijual di kedai opto.

berlesen. so, secured la sikit..

why take risks if u know there are other better options kan/

tp..huhu...kaler grey lah pulaknye..

iyelah.. dah terbeli online nyer kaler brown..(which now I'm not gonna wear it smpai 3bln like oways kot...)

xnak la sama..

nak la variety sket..

ahh..

grey pn grey lah..

after dah expired yg tuh I'll buy brown pnya ye? ;)

just satu perkara je mngenai lenses ni.

sy ni rabun.. n ade astig..

ni sy bru taw la psl term nih.

astig tu mcm silau pnya power la..

when someone rabun.. ada 2 mnde utk dilihat..

1st: kekaburan tuh sendiri. object will appear blurry

2nd: the doublings. object clear je, tp nmpk bertindih..or jadik double. ala..mcm ble kite julingkan mata tuhh..

sy nih, power silau yg tggi..

most lenses xdek power utk astig. 

astig pnya lens ada je.. cuma mahal la sket...

so..nnti2 lah dulu ye.. huhuks.. i kne kumpul pitish utk dslr dlu

so (byk benonye so kau)... ble sy pkai lens, object clear..cuma ade doubling lah. tgk objek besar2 mcm muka org, pokok..bngunan.. ok je.. but not tulisan..

so(lg)..xbrp digalakkan la utk drive (sbb takut xnmpk signboard), especially mlm..

bace buku..or tgk mnde2 kt skrin laptop pn...xseclear pkai spek lah..

huhu..

ble dah kaya nnti.. trus operate je..sng. xpyh nk pk bwat spek or beli lens..

kan?

broke ups hurt but God knows better. cheer!

break ups hurt

terlebih lg kpd org yg terlebih empathy cam sy nih.

either I'm in the story

or someone else's.

been there, so i clearly know how it feels like.

now..

i heard 2 of my frens broke up.

I'm not gonna say their name..

just.. hear me.

the story.

both girls stat kapel since freshmen year. 1st year lah tu maksudnya. 

but i didn't pay such attention lah. mls nak amik taw sgt.

just taw la dorg kapel.

sume satu kelas.

ngan sy.

skrg.. dah abeh blajar.

people say, adat lah.. kapel masa kat uni je..

after dat mgkin dah tak sehaluan atau ape2 lah.

i heard.. this couple A..

I can see la the girl nmpk gak setia.

i tot they btol2 serius.

dah siap jumpa parents kot.

sy..suka la.. ble dah jumpe parent nih.

nmpk la official sikit.

sy xdek la menentang sgt kapel2 nih..

kapel la..tp..nnti kawen la..

jgn kapel suka2 je..

sadly..after dah grad..they broke up. why? me dunno.

the guy seems to like another girl he met in a program.

with all jiwang2 words in his FB.

kdg2 mcm dah psiko plk sy tgk.

sblm2 ni..xde pun tulis mnde2 gtu..

n rumors told me that..the guy xmo make it public sgt la ms ngan kwn sy nih.

"ape punya lelaki!!" bisik hati

her bestfren told me that parent the guy tuh dah suke sgt dah kat my fren tuh. siap nk pjuk lg si guy tuh..suh pk balik. 

eii..geram btulla. my fren tu xdek la kurangnye. comel je. baik. 

eii...si guy tuh igt dah kacak sgt ke nk cari lain? 

geram!

tp..salah that guy kah?

mungkin la..dorg mmg dah xde jodoh.

but.. seems like semudahnya beliau berubah hati.

ntah la...

then the other kapel.

kapel B.

rsnya dorg pn since freshmen year.

i heard la that guy tu sort of kuat kontrol.

kuat jealous.

salu jgk la my fren kena tengking2 ngan dy.

(smpai one day..my fren xtahan..nah amik! kena sebijik penampar kat muka. padan muka!)

hm.

that guy tu org penting la jgk.

byk nk kena bersosial.

jumpe rmai pompuan.

n...

masa tahun akhir, i keep seeing that guy ngan other girl. our classmate lah jgk.

sy xheran mana pn.. sbb dorg satu projek, so byk nak kena bincang sama2.

...........tp.. byk kali lah jgk bersama-sama nya.

"aii.. si _____ x jeles ke.. ngan ______ je memanjang nih. kalau aku..aii......" bisik hati.

so skrg.. after they broke up, mmg the guy kapel ngan si classmate td.

hmm..

*sebak nak marah

meaning.. mebi that guy mmg dah main2 perasaan ngan si classmate while still wif my fren tuh.

(*prasangka semata2..ishk2)

ls la nk cter pjg2.. lari matlamat.

the point nye here..

is it really true guys bleh brubah hati secepat tuh?

how dare la..

so... not-loyal.

haih.. ni bikin makin pyh nk pupuk kepercayaan kt lelaki nih.

igt pompuan ni mainan ke?

sy rs..most of us girls kapel pn.. matlamatnye nk kawen.

bkn suka2.

like me.. myself.

skrg single mingle.

slowly searching la jgk for the possible Mr Right..

tp.. ape yg sy imagine.. bkn nak dating cmne..or..g tgk wayang sesame.. 

but.. what our life might be after the marriage.

sweet things.. like masak sama2.. how to teach our children ke.. date n honeymoon..

ptg2 kuar jln2 tepi pntai same2..

(cewah.. imagine xpenah xterlebih..muahahaha)

ala.. ape2 yg xperlu nk kaver2 utk dibuat lah..

(eh..ni mcm dah lari point je..)

skali lg..

why la guys r so un-trust-able.

i know not everyone begituh tp.. seeing byk sgt kecurangan..or..ketidakseriusan...

sedikit sbyk glooms the trust la..

still.. i believe everything happen for reasons.

i dun remember the correct sentence.. but.. something..

" maybe one's destiny is to enter ur life, but not to stick in it. they walk away once their purpose is done.. God has planned everything for you. that guy perhaps just a small part in ur long ongoing story"

p/s: anti btol la cter2 break ups nih. eurgh!

acapella, netball n DEBATE?!!

HOME SWEET HOME

skarang cuti!

yeah..

i think dah nak dkat 2 mggu kot i join gems.

best oh!

sadly... one of our company member, Wan Muhaini will be leaving us bcoz beliau dah dpt keje

RA kat IMR.

sobs.

baru kenal.. tp rs cam dh lame kenal.

sedih kot.

lgpn.. orang kuat netball tuh!

baru je nk brangan menang tournament.

bleh la kasi tggi sket sunshine stock.

apepun.. semoge beliau terus sukses2 di tempat baru! :')

sy..oh ye..sy belum cter lg kan?

hemhem.

kat gems.. sy join netball, acapella n debate competition.

acapella tuh...mcm kte kna nyanyi without music la.

4-5 org per group. sume kena la mula2 tuh..

then my grup menang 1st round.

sadly *lg.. kalah 2nd round.

haha..dah sore x sedap.. nak bwat cmno..

dapat lagu i will survive kot. 

ok la..mula2 rasa cam senang.

cube korang nyanyi.. cube korg ikut rentak dy yg cepat tuh..

cube korg nyanyi in grup..

nak dptkan ke-serentak-an tuh pon satu masalah besar kot.

apepon, dah lepas.

we had fun!

then.. masuk netball plk..

actually..sume org kena masuk game.

yg ade..

Soccer

Volleyball

Netball

so.. soccer? er.. kena byk2 lari.. mls lah nk berlari2 sgala..:P

volleyball? er.. tangan x ckup kuat kot. me dah la kurus.. agak2 kalo bola dtg.. me lari kot.. haha

so..tinggalla netball.

since sy xpenah main netball..sy still sgt blur rules dy.

(okla..ade skali time kat sbp dlu.. tu pn sbb ade sukan antara rumah.. so, terpksa gak masuk sbb x ckup org

for sure kalah la time tuh..sobs.. rmai bdk len yg terer)

now me jadik GS. yg duk shoot bola tuh.

nk jadik yg byk2 gerak kt tgh..xckup agresif lah kot..

so.. jadi shooter jela..

baik ready kt D je..tggu bola n shoot.

kang terlanggar mana2 peraturan plk..

me..pndai ke shoot??

boleh la jgk sket2..

tp..mostly si Wan la yg shoot.

tu yg ktorg dah menang 3 round berturut2 tuu..

cayalah!

skrg..Wan dah xde..

sy..kena usaha sungguh2 lah!

drp 5 trials.. at least 3-4 kena masuk!

tp.. nk usaha cmne.. dh hari2 ade tournament.

ntah masa bila nk pektis..

i just need to practise..

nk tune tangan.. jgn terlebih kuat or terslow..

(ayat keling. I know)

so.. i hope, we'll do well la after this.

lastly.. Debate.

oh my god! tak penah2 berangan or byg diri masuk debate.

ni bdk2 company la pnya keje..

pegi vote sape suh

they said..tgk performance masa presentation proposal baru2 nih.

sy... present bleh la.

ni debate kot.

paham tak DEBATE tuh camne??

nk kena hentam2 org..

ckp in public..

ohmy.. I was like fainting tahu?!

kite ni dh la jenis introvert. shy2 cat lagih..

me n my other 2 team members dah la diberitahu lambat.

i mean.. dorg lmbt vote n decide..

so..mmg xckup nk prepare btul2 la

dah la rules pn xtaw..

hari nak debate tuh bru nk prepare sgale

30 mins b4 debate tuh bru nk prektis..tu pn just nk tgk spy point xbertindih atr satu sama lain.

bkn pektis nk hentam2 sgala

mmg blur r wa ckp sama lu

somehow.. i heard we won the 1st round.

TAHNIAH or TAKZIAH?

huwaa.. pasnih nk kenal lawan lg ke?

sengsaraaaaaa T______T

menang netball mmg hepi.

menang debate.. hum.. perasaan bercampur2

hepi la menang. sape x ske menang.

tp..kalo dh menang.. kena masuk next round. kena debate lg.

tsk.

apepun.. I'll try my best lah.

just utk company tersayang (lah sangatt)

mmg unbelievable lah.

mula2 masuk je dah busy.

sy yg passive nih.. yg xbrp rajin nk join itu ini..

tibe jadik ala2 pelajar cemerlang pulak.

org yg masuk lg awal dr sy pn xdek sebusy tuh.

bukan sibuk organize event.

sibuk TERjadik participant.

hadoila.

me xdek la menyesal pn.

suka je..

mmg terrifying.

xpenah ade pengalaman gtuh.

tp..

ni la masanya.

xdek la takut sgt nk involve.. ble dah taw sume org pn same je level.

xdek la yg super brilliant.. or super terer..

main netball tu pn..menang sbb yg len pn same2 xpndai main.

just lucky je I guess.

debate pn sama.

conclusionnye.. best la join.

dpt kwn baru.

dpt try mende baru.

blajar mnde baru.

dpt duit.

dpt duk resort free.

dpt mkn n minum free.

business tu xleh ckp la

tp busy2 pn xdek la smpai tensen smpai nk pecah kepala

they're not that evil la..

until next time.

me want to hv lunch pulak!

:)

CEO's PA? oh mann..

hait!

today's my 4th day kat Merang Suria Resort nih.

oh..FYI, I'm joining GEMS

Graduate Employability Management Scheme

korg gugel jelah..mls nak cter pjg.

nak tdo neh :P

actually me dftr lmbt..so theres agak byk of things yg me tertinggal..

but I'm catching up

bcoz of dtg lmbt..

I got the position as CEO PA in my company.

seua 20 org..

everyone got jawatan masing2

ceo ke, hr manager ke.. finance ke..coo project ke..

mcm2 lah..

still blur2.. but itsokay.

the beginning is always like this.

me..malu2.

tibe2 nk kena jadik pa ceo.

ceo plk lelaki.

haih.. trouble btul nak kena deal ngan lelaki.

lg2..ble jadik pa.. maunye kena slalu update ngan beliau.

bkn x suka..

cuma.. ntah.. xreti nk berkomunikasi ngan lelaki.

hmm..awal lg kot.. nnti me sempoi2 lah kot ble dh ngam sket.

so..afraid lah..he might think me xpndai bwat keje ke ape..

ceo..hensem? haha.. boleh laa.. ngahahaha..

n ade la jgk some other participant yg not bad lah looks nye..hahaha

tp.. no feelings2 ea..:P

seyesly.. 

mebi sbb me waiting for sumone else...? :P

tp..tp..yg jadik mslhnye..sumone else nih..me think.. xtahu kot yg me like him

aiya..

me minat2 gtu jela..

tp..tp..minat gtu2 pn..

seems like.. me eyes not really terlekat to anyone here.

got time to online.. I'll go stalking his facebook..

his..twitter..

ni..minat2 gtu je ke?

aiya... me pn dh xsure.

minat..n like.. same ke?

=.=

tp..tp....kang melepas plk....

tgh byk pilihan nih.

HAHAHAH

adoi.. lari btol nawaitu.

ehh...xjgk.

i came here.. for few reasons.

i want to improve my skills

i want to de-freeze my brain

i want to get new frens

i want to get exposure..

exposure. u know la.. me ni jenis segan2 ngan lelaki..

kalo duk umah je.. ntah ble la nk dpt exposure kan..

seeing frens n cuzin now nearing to the married life

mane x jeles.

me..calon pn xdek lg.

haih..

who knows... my jodoh's here? hohohh

dude.. at least i hv the gut to berusaha..

not just tunggu jek kan.. I am too a capable person ok!

erk

falsafah apekah

okla.. me dah fenim2 lalats..

me cabut dulu ea..