English plss

Haih zarin. We meet again. Once update, always feels like to update. Again and again. Then laziness come, and you’ll feel too lazy to update. Then you won’t update until the mood comes again.

Tch.
This is no good. Definitely having the istiqomah probs. But, hey! It’s not even like am a famous blogger who stalkers or followers keep checking on. Blog is just one way to express my thoughts. Is it not?

Wait a minute. What’s with this englishss? Well, suddenly the urge to practice my English came to me. I’m not still in the midst of stalking cicakdanlelabah. She seems, smart. I like smart people. However..(eceh), doesn’t mean only speaking English then u’ll look smart. Duhh.. like I care :P

hamboi uncle..kuang ajo nyee..

Not having any particular point to come up with.
Sorry.
Bye.



p/s: I like cicakdanlelabah colors. She likes colors. I like the way she makes colors wayy more colorful.

I Love Colors!

cicak dan lelabah

okela.

trase cam rajin pulak nak update blog. tentang apa? err..

takde apa sangat nak diceritakan. cumanya nak bagitahu, saya terjumpe satu belog yang pemiliknye persis kawan skolah dulu. okela.. persis che wan. yela, saya memang suka pon stalk blog beliau. salah ke nak stalk orang2 hebak? lols. orang lawa, cerdik, pandai masak, creative, independent, confident.. kalo ikutkan, banyak lagi nak dikagumkan semek yang comel itu (brani kau panggil die semek, zarinn?? ) eh..tehee.. tak marah kann?

eh eh.. bkn nak cite pasal che wan kat sini. nak cite pasal blog yang empunya nya macam che wan tu.

http://cicakdanlelabah.blogspot.com/

printscreen blog tersebut. klik untuk tatapan lebih besar. tehee

nama empunya, Sri. dipanggil Sri. Nama betul, Ramadana Salman. Err..pompuan ye. Malay.

ehe..nama macam hindustan kan? orangnye cantik. nampak cerdik (mana kau tahu??) erm.. beliau biotechnologist. tp freelancer web designer. cerdik lah tu. tak kenal sangat pun tapi blog die interesting oh! banyak gak cakap pasal makanan. hehe.. pandai amik gambar lawa2.. kamera ape la gamoksnye beliau guna ye. tapi..saya rasa la.. die ni level ala2 che wan kot. I mean.. quite berada la... mampu nak makan kat tempat mahal slalu compared to us..I mean, me.

suke benonye tgk org yang ala2 high end nih.nampak confident jep. saya ni.. nampak orang confident sket trus nak adore kann. haihh

salah ke? tak kann..

:P

Update satt

Hai.. nak curi masa kejap update belog. Gesaan tika bertemu dengan blogger femes seng ragel kite (kata beliau la..) hekhekhek.. Laila juga ada menyebut akan sunyinya belog ini. Hem. Ape mau buat.. sibuk der.. lgpon kte bkn blogger femes ames. Berhabuk bersawang pon, ade orang sibuk tanye kah..?


Er.. Ok.. dah berapa bulan kat ibukota ni. 2 bulan lebih. Eh.. dah nak masuk bulan ketiga sebenarnya. Lama ke? Well.. sedar tak sedar, I da jadik orang Kay Ewl uols. Haha.. Er.. dah terer dah naik lrt, monorel..ktm. MidValley tu..dah mcm kedai runcit dah. Jejak kaki dah tinggal kat lowyat, timesquare, ikea, sungei wang, suria klcc, the curve..


Haha.
Tp, xpernah lg tgk movie duk sini. Xde orang ajak. *den pon bkn gemor bebeno nengok wayang nih. Tp..merasa la jgk berjalan. K.ina rajin jgk ajak kesana-kesini. Rumah xdela sunyi mana dah.. sbb salu je kuar jumpe member. Tak pun member datang rumah.


Keskeskes..
Berdikarilah engkau dibumi metropolitan nih. 

 

Minggu lepas..satu lagi.. saya melancong ke South Korea wif famili. Best woo! Siyes tak tipu. Tapi kejap sangat, 3 hari je. Tp tu pn macam sume tempat dah pegi. Okla..Cuma xpegi everland, jeju..dongdaemun.

 

poyo lak nak pakai spek mate belalang. nampak anehs puns ade. tsk =.="

 

 Masa pergi bulan May. 19 May-21 May. Musim bunga dah nak habis. Dah takde dah sakura banyak2 tuh. Weather’s good. Sang suria ade menyumbang haba, tapi udara kat sana sejukk. Ala..xdela sejuk cam winter kot. Sejuk sikit daripada Cameron highland. Plan jugak nak cter detail pasal trip korea nih. Boleh la orang buat rujuk2 ke hap eke kan.. Overall dalam rm2000+ la sorang. Dah cam pur flight n package which consists of mknn, penginapan, pengangkutan, and tour guide.


Paling seronok kat mana? Hehe..
Semua seronok. Tapi, sebab ihsan saudara norden salam, saya ditemani sebijik dslr ke sana! Dan.. semuanya menjadi indah…..#ehh? Err.. I mean. Sukelah yang amat kot.. antara niat pergi mmg nak amik gambar lawa2. (lawa ke..?) so, ade dslr.. kire dah langsai la wish ituh. Tempat paling best nak amik gambar? Erm.. Nami Island! Tapikan..kalo musim saljji or luruh, mesti lagi lawa kan? Next time lah agaknye.. #ehh? lagi.


Hehe.. tp travelling ke Negara yang total no malay situation mmg best. What an experience. Eish.. terbanyak pulak ceritanya. Copcopcop! Kite kena buat post lain untuk korea. Ini Cuma update sahaja. erm..ape lagi nak cte? Oh ye..smlm kan.. perkara shock and awe berlaku. Tak boleh cter panjang demi masa depan yang cerah benderang. #err..


Setakat yang bleh cter adelah…..
Semalam…saya, fifi, nisa and laila g damansara jumpe blogger terkenal kite, seng ragel..atau lebih dikenali sebagai bikpah.. atau.. zarifah.. juga zarifamr.. Saje mau jumpa-jumpaan. Ika xdpt dtg kerna beliau jauh. Nora pulak.. pulang ke kampong halaman. Borak2..makan2.. begitulah kisahnye. Ehes. Tapi..yang epik adelah 2 event yang mengiringi pertemuan itu. Satu sebelom, and satu lagi selepas.Serius Allah nak bagi peringatan *oke...ini mmg serius. Erm.. boleh cter yang selepas aje.. hehuu. While nak turun flyover kat mana-ntah, tetibe keta mazda putih idaman yang hensem dan gagah perkasa itu bergegar. I mean..driving x smooth.. mcm…something wrong ngan tayar.geduk geduk geduk. Oleh sebab event yang pertama tadi masih menghantui, ktorg decide to stop. Nak check ape tak kena.mungkin saja sequence dari event yang pertama tadi..


And guess what. Tayar pecah! Ktorang berempat..all girls.. pkul 11pm lebih (ke..12am lebih? Lupedah) dkat man-mana ntah. Cuak lah!


So..cubaan nak tukar tayar tu adelah. Dah hijack..tp nak tukar pulak xpandai. Teori ade..tp, kudrat pulak tak cukup. oleh kerana Nisa je yang ada boyfren dikalangan ktorg, makan beliau dikerah menelefon boifrennye itu. Tup2..ade sebuah keta brenti. Ade sorg abg, pkcik..n akak. Akak tu duk je dalam kete. Abg n pkcik tu tolong tukar tayar.


Saat itu sungguh......*don't know how to describe* Oh abam heroooO~#ehh
Err.. apepon, terima kasih banyak2! Abam hero pakai baju oren. dan.. mengenai boyfrennye nisa itu..kami tidak bertemu pun dengan beliau kerana kesilapan arah yang diberikan oleh Nisa. Kasihan beliau. Hewhew.. apepon, I’m sure nisa akan pujuk later on. Keskeskes. Oh ye.. disaat tengah memikirkan nak mintak tolong sape itu.. weols yg single neh pon sebulat suara…..”time nilah functionnye pakwe!”


Ngehngeh.. hai ble lah nak jumpe sorang neh. Forever alone sumgoh! :P
Okeh tu bkn ayat nak cakap I available ke hape okay. Eii.. not my style la tergedik2 sebegitu! #err..tp..bukanke..bunyinye…cenggitu? Eh eh..ape cakap pasal pkwe2 plk nih. Eish tak macho tak macho.


Erm.. er.. tetibe dah xtaw nk cakap pe. Sampai sini jela dulu kot. Hewhew…
Assalamualaikum~

p/s: oh ye, I guess semalam ade orang tu tido ngan sengih2 dan blushing2 seluruh muka.. maklum sajela, mendengar cter tentang orang yang diminati. Positif pulaks thus. kekeke

South Korea Trip

South Korea Trip, a set on Flickr.

panjang ceritanya. pendek pula masanya..

nantilah kite cerita.

hehe

Mother-like feeling

Funny though.. life alone like this. You wake up alone, got to prepare your own breakfast.. or even lunch. Wash dishes and make sure the house is clean before you go to work.


Working. Yes, you are alone again. There are other staff near you, but they got their own job right. So… it’s you and your job. Evening, You go home. Went on LRT.. where others independent people just go to where ever they wanna go. Night, you prepare your dinner. Lazy enuf, you just hit the nearby stalls before going up the apartment. Buy some dishes. You just cook the rice. You eat, watch TV. Prepare tomorrow’s attire. Sleep.


Everyday.


It’s just so funny. I mean.. being out like an adult. Well, I am young. My brain’s young. I dunno if I can really live this kind of life. Even funnier.. somehow this condition gives me the mothery feelings. Haha..

 

Why not.. you wake up alone, preparing breakfast as if you got children to feed. Later prepare them to the tadika.. time keje, already nak kena pk..mlm nnti nak masa apa. balik, go fetch them from the tadika first. Then prepare dinner.


Seronok lah plk imagine cmtuh.
*sebab imagine je, bkn real pn..tu yg sronok. Kalo real, mau mampus kot.. bkn takat kena prepare itu ini..tp kne layan kerenah anak2 lg. kalo anak yg mengada2…lg la.. semoga tak jadi ibu yg garang. Hahaha


erk.. oke, sy dah mula merepek. Tp siyes what.. memang trase cmtu. Mcm lawak untuk minda umo 22 tahun. Bg sy la.. sbb sy tahu diri sy ni cmne. Kebudak-budakkan. Certain people, umo 22 mmg dah matured. Fikiran mcm dah kehadapan..mcm org2 dewasa. I don’t really think I’m that kind of people la.


Tapitapitapi..
Bebaru ni.. got a fren tanya sy..” zarin anak sulung ea?” She said sy nmpk berdikari. Hahaha..


Had to la sayang. Dah la tercampak kt bumi KL ni sorg2. Keje lak sorg2.. most of the things mmg kena buat sendiri.. besides.. parent pn bukan makin muda. So, despite of how kebudak-budakkan n manja.. terpaksa la push diri untuk survive. Sampai bile nak bergantung kat family kan?


*serius?
Hm.. baru2 ni satu peristiwa besar berlaku. Sy takkan lupa sampai bila2 la.. it’s about the bitterness of city life. Sy ade merepek psl tu in previous post. Tp xnak mention ape bnda yg berlaku. Malas untuk mengingat. Biar jadik pengajaran je. And… it makes me think. Adekah sy perlu pemantau? I mean..org yang ade untuk pantau ape yg sy buat. I mean..er..


Mcm mana nak ckp ye.. Ala.. senang ckp..teman hidup? Haha.ops! gatai nak kawin kaa?


Xdela jgk. Feeling natural je. Xdek la rs desperate lg. haha.. cumanya, ntahla.. sy xtahu adekah sy ni can go on kehidupan gni. Baru je jauh sket ngan family.. bru je xbrp lama duk sorg2… dah ada mnde extreme berlaku. Soalannye.. can I really trust myself? Eh.. korg paham ke sy ckp ape ni? Mcm makin pening je. Haha.. ntah. Xreti dah nak explain. Hal berkaitan feelings ni mmg pyh nk explain, xgtu?



:P

Happiness only real when shared

Maybe I dreamed too much.

Hm..

Dear blog.. Sincerely what’s mentioned in the movie “Into the Wild” is plain true.

“Happiness only real when shared”

Not saying I’m not happy now. I wish I could tell you everything... but everyone got stories meant to be kept alone. Secrets.

I wish you know.. that I am a bit depressed. Not about the workings. Not really about staying alone. It’s about what I did last week. I don’t even want to recall about it. Don’t ask me. Please. I’ve had enough. I did feel like this once.. when I broke up with my 1^st love. Yes, this is as bitter as that. I don’t know if I’m really okay.. or just pretend like one. Life must go on, I can’t keep thinking or regretting about it all the time.

 But I can’t help to cry seeing the dreams I so want to have before my eyes. It was a torture. Tremendous one.

And…to make it worse, it happens everyday.

 Dear blog.. if only you know……

I know saying stuff won’t undo the past. Lot’s of ‘if only’s too won’t undo the past.

 I just… don’t know what to say.. I just want to let you know how I feel right now. Because..I don’t really have somebody near me..in real.. to talk to.

It’s not that sweet n encouraging to keep on saying “Yes I can do this! There are lots of people less fortunate than me. This is nothing” everyday to myself…. alone.

I’m admitting that I’m just as other people too. There are times when I can be as bright as I can..or keep on motivated and positive most of the times. But..there are also times when I am in the weakest state. I’m just a human. Even superheroes got depressed at times, don’t they?

Bitterness

Last Sunday was a mess.

Yesterday too.

She was too clueless and innocent.

She wanted to believe

that there are still kind people in this world.

Thank God, there are.

But still,

bad people are everywhere

She was less likely to aware

But thank God she's okay.

The lost.. let it be.

What's left is more important.

She has tasted the bitterness of city life.

Yes she is young..

But there are so many people younger than her

who feel a world a lot bitter than hers

however..

let's hope she's strong enough to face days ahead.

she's really demotivated.

each bit of life pushes her tears.

her love.. she had too kill it.

Maybe she don't want to..

but it's too painful to realize 

it's because of the love.. she's been through such bitterness

that love didn't betray her.

It's... some bad people who tainted the love.

I hope she'll get back on her foot someday

#The cost for an experience is not cheap