I saw it in my dream, an engagement of somebody.

smlm, sy mimipi something yg sy xexpect pn nk mimpi..

at least after a long while.

i dreamed of 'him'!

nk kate terfikirkan dy, xde la pulak..

(oh, ade la skali tu.. masa breakfast. satu flashback xsemena-mena singgah kat kepala. pelik betul.. tgh minum pn boleh dy nk mai..hurm..dy dtg sendiri ok, xdenye nk sgja p igt)

mlm td.. mimpi..

somebody told me, her sister wanna talk to me.

feels kinda weird, tp.. jumpe jela..

tup2.. jumpe mak dy.

(apesal sume pkai kaler purple neh?? ops.. ada mjlis kah? dy nk kawen kah?)

sebelah mak dy, adela org tu..

hm...bakal tunag@isteri dia..

(xsure mjlis kawen ke b'tunang..)

aku slm mak dy.

yela..slm jela sume org.. pompuan..

dan.. aku slm jugak bakal tunang@isteri dy tuh..

lame jgk aku cium tgn dy. i expect she's older than me lah..

teringat masa aku sedikit kutuk dy dulu..huhu

org tgh emosi xstable.

huhu..

hope dy maafkan lah..

kutuk ke? bkn la kutuk.. cume nada x puas ati..
nada cam "wei, ko pehal sibuk mencelah.. mcm da xde org len dh atas dunia nih"
dlm ati jela..
yg keluar lain sikit bunyinye kot..
ntah, ak pn dah lupa..
tp masa tu jela.. skrg ak da xkesah pon..
cuma kalo bleh ak nk elak la drp buat ape2 yg berisiko utk bwat ak igt balik..
ape yg da berlaku.. dah la.. bnda dh lepas.

then.. ntah cmne.. smpai satu tmpt.. rmai org..

ada kanopi, kain rentang (hiasan) kaler kuning..

mmg rupe cam mjlis kawen lah..

at first ak igt cam tunang je, tp.. xkan la nk bertunang pn besor benor acaranya..

i tot he's going to practice that.. bertunang, diam2 je.. kawen baru heboh2..

teramat bersyukurlah sekali, I never saw him in that dream.

then, I woke up in my room, kt rumah..

pk2.. betul ke ape yg aku nmpk tuh?

ke..mimpi je?

so.. ak g kt tmpt kejadian..

betul upenye,

masih ade kanopi yg tinggal. hiasan pn belum dialih sepenuhnya.

it was yesterday..

i not remembering of singgah mkn..

not remembering of naik rumah jumpe pengantin n so on..

just passing by to see it..

hurm.. tibe2.. aku terjaga..

mimpi sggh rupanya..

tp, kenapa so sudden?

xde pulak ak tertanyakan dy..

terfikirkan dy..

apetah lg.. sengaja memikirkan..

so, waking up this morning.. ak terus bk belog dy

(jarang skali ak tringin utk berbuat begini ok)

oh, ade gmbr engagement!

ade gmbr tunang dy, tp xjelas..sbb tunduk slm mak dy..

ntah same ke x ngan dlm mimpi aku tuh.. huhu

dh bertunang rupanya..

aku x tahu menahu pn..

(xbrmkna aku nk amik tahu..let bygone be bygone kan)

cuma nk pastikan mimpi ak je..

tererrlah, God told me tru dreams..

(org ckp mimpi tu mainan syaitan.. tp, xkan syaitan baik sgt nk bgtau ak kalo dy dh bertunang skali pun..)

hm.. smoga bahagia lah hendaknya..

huhu..

ak?

huu.. teruskan menunggu pemilik tulang rusuk aku..

xpela, perit takat mana pun, it's an important phase in my life.

but it was so long ago..

sorry to say, i tried to remember his face.. after I really woke up dis morning.

surprisingly, I can't.

I remember d smile, the nose..eyes, ears n hair..

but I can't combine them all..to create a face i recognize.

i don't know.. to thank or what..

my memory's depleting.. I don't really remember most about him..

they just come in flashbacks sometimes..

*sigh*

can't really believe it's ending this way..

can't really believe, it actually ends..

can't believe.. it is so hard to find someone that accept you as you are..

am i really that easy to let go?

(ah.. knock it off..

u'll find someone who'll appreciate you..

if u don't.. u always hv ur family to love right?

ur family loves you more than you know..)

(besides, it's you who really want to be serious when u involve in such relationship right? God knows what's best for you....)